Friends(?)

I have no friends.

Every night, i lie on my bed and i think about my life. My currently, short and miserable life. After a few days of such contemplation i can conclude that i have absolutely no friends at all.

There is not one person that i know whom i can share my troubles, my secrets, my pains with. I have no one who is willing to help me up when i fall. No one who will counsel me when i need it. No one close enough to understand what I am going through. Although many might say that i have friends. But they are never there when i need them. I feel that every passing day is a pain.

I have many heartbreaks, many regrets. I am an extremely emotional person, i base my friends on how they make time for me to hear out my troubles. Nobody in my class has the ability to do any of this for me.

i have to admit that i am hard to get along with and i like to tease people, make them frustrated but if i had a friend, one whom i can rely on.

I am stuck in this fcking life with no support whatsoever.

FML

Nehh~ Bored lurh

Yea.. i know i've not posted since a month ago. I've just been busy doing nothing. Anyways, today was quite fun-ly.. boring? I don't know how to describe it. It was fun for some, boring for some. Mostly fun. I think. Enough ranting. To th point.
Today started pretty normal, woke up at 5.45 bath, wash face, wash mouth, wash some places. Then off to school. Took 302 then 172 directly to school. Waited for Kian Zhong at Choa Chu Kang bus terminal but he didn't show up because his father was fetching him and he didn't bother to say anything.
First lesson.(Chinese)
Why is chinese the first period? I've no idea. Is it a good idea? Frankly, no. It has this long-lasting effect that makes you hate going to school. Nothing much to say. Did close passage then did compre. Overall-y quite easy.
Second lesson.(P.E.)
Did SBJ and shuttle run. SBJ deproved. Shuttle run improved since last year. And we have Mr Keith back with us. (WooHoo). He's a nice guy.. really..
Thrid something(Recess)
Quese was long ttm. Managed to buy Mee Rebus then took some of Ding En's shredded meat from his Mee soto. K.Z. complained that the aunty forgotten give him the meat.
We Played catching, just to get things straight, catching isn't a game for childish people. It trains your cardio, your leg muscles not to mention giving you a good mood.
Fourth lesson(Geog)
Nothing much. Grouped with K.Z. , WeiHan.
Fifth lesson(Science).
Practical test corrections.
Sixth(Speech & Drama)
I was damn nervous lorh. I was thinking up all the people i hate for the scolding part. Then when Qin Ping read Mr Quek instead of Mr. Phua. I cracked, no idea why may be its because the idea of Valencia marrying her coach is just way too bizarre lol. Then arh the previous groups all did very well lorh. So super nervous, my legs keep trembling during the whole thing. My Jeans couldn't come out! Wah piang, so paiseh. Everyone at hospital acting emo. I at the side trying to get my pants off.
Seventh lesson(Malay)
I sort of have a mixed first impression of her. She seems kind yet she seems like Cikgu Jay.
Eighth thingy(Lunch Break)
Went down, drank Banana juice with yakult. Tasted like shit. Ate my Prawn noodles. Not bad lurh but because of the juice my prawn noodles also tasted like shit. So i took 15 minutes to down the shit.
Last Lesson(Maths)
Suddenly, i became so Zai. Dun know why. But i resolve to win Kian Zhong already, you better watch out.
After school, i planned to stay back for awhile do my sci assignment. But in the end, ended up staying until 4-4.30? I dun know. Did Maths.
took MRT home with Tania. Then there was this korean family with this baby boy with this cute shirt with this 3 cows on it with "moo moo" around it and the cow at the bottom can make the sounds that those baby shoes make. And he Kept squeezing it. Irritating like hell. Tania got off at CCK i got off at Yew Tee. Home Sweet Home.
Not really, played com for awhile then proceeded to Yew Tee Square qu jia peng. actually not peng, whatever ate duck kuay tiao. uber nice. then my mother was so irritating. I was extremely bui song with her because she dun want go macs so she whispered to my father in a voice loud enough for me to hear from 10 metres away. "Tell Aaron not to show me that black face" So came back now sitting here posting. doing nothing. Yawns. Doing maths.Homework. Something. Yawns. Sneeze. Yawns.

My life is pretty much F-ed up. I can't do anything rite. My Science i actually got C6. Thats the lousiest i ever got for science. i don't know. I'm doing badly at everything. i can't Do my educaton properly, sometimes i get owned in-game, i can't even get a girl. lol not like i'm despo too. But thats not the point. Sometimes i feel that i'm not really into the class. I'm only popular because i entertain and i'll only be popular if i entertain. i don't like that. It makes my life very demanding. If anyone hates me just tell me directly, don't bottle it up inside then whisper to ur friend, point here, point there. Irritating. Hmms.. I'll try post more often then not. But abit busy lurh so.. see how lorh.

Do They?

Parents always say they know us best. Is that really so? Every single time I hear that familiar doorbell which beckons their coming, a sense of dread sweeps over me. Why? Because when they come home, they don't start talking to me with concern instead i would expect a series of interrogations and lectures. How much homework have u done? Why didn't you put your socks away? Why didn't wash the dishes? Do you know how busy I am? Why can't i get a "How was your day?" Show me some care and concern.
I can't even talk to them, they never understand. When i tell them that i hate chinese they would just tell me to study harder, or to stop talking so negatively. I don't need your friggin' advice what i want is someone who can share my problems, someone who would stand by me. I don't need a person who is always contradicting my views. Why can't u understand? You don't even know my favorite color. Huh. You guys call you my parents are u even fit to be so? I can't talk to you about anything. I can't tell you about my day. Because you don't want to accept it. When i can't find a book, and i need help finding it or someone to share my worries. You weren't there. You were lecturing me, you were scolding me , you DON'T understand. What happened to the care and concern? Where is the "Don't worry, we will help you find it, after all, we are family". Why can't you be more loving. Why can't you say that you love me? Why is it always disappointment? Have i not done enough to "impress" you? Have i not given you face?

Everyday, i hide all this lack of love, this lack of concern with the jovial self that most people know me to have. I feel like crying out but no one will hear me. I feel like screaming, i want to let them know, but i'm sure they will not understand. They will cal me childish, they will say i'm spoilt. I've had it. If you read this, then congratulations, you have just seen Aaron's true self. You would want to make amendments. Or, you could just take the another alternative, stay as you are. What do you care anyway.

The Letharginess

Awrite~

Today i woke up at 4.30 because i set my alarm clock wrongly, so i ended up going back to sleep at 5 and oversleeping to 6.15. So, i didn't meet Kian Zhong and i had to take the MRT if not I'll be uber late.
>>Fast Forward (History Class)
History period is one of the quietest times of the day because there is alot to copy and not enough time, so everyone was busy scribbling off in their notebooks. Even Jun Ming, who was having fun writing *ahem* *ahem*. As usual, Miss Jin held us back for about 4 minutes before letting us off for Physical Ed. Started P.E. with warm-up 2 rounds, and then he went on and told us about fighting spirit and all the stuff which we need to win competitions. Oh! I had to wear Jun Ming's shirt because my shirt still had the milo stains of when i had to "help" someone clean her book. So Jun Ming had to wear Zhen Ming's Shirt which was friggin' huge.
During recess we ate chicken rice as usual and the 2 big eaters (Jamo & Jun Ming [Double J's =X]) bought 2 plates of chicken rice, one with the chicken and one with the rice. I don't even know how they finished it all up.
>>Fast Forward (Chinese Lesson)
It was bad, bad and bad, i went to learn san gu mao luwhen i was supposed to do the one on 12 golden- somethings so i easily failed and when i tried to erm.. "refer" to the answers by suspending them under kian Zhong's table, it didn't work out because she kept passing by my table. It also didn't help that I started to have a terrible headache and my vision switched between normal and double images. I became very groggy and i can't even grip my pen hard enough, so i started to lie down and that "chio bu" keep knocking into my table, so damn irritating.
>>Fast Forward (Speech & Drama)
When i walked in, the teacher asked if i was ok and i wanted to reply "Are u kidding me?" For Lessons,e didn't really do much, mostly planning and brainstorming for our next project.
Over-all it was quite fun, possible the Fun-nest time of day.
>>Fast Forward (Back at Home)
I didn't go CCA because i suspected that i had a fever and true enough, i did. Even though it was slight, its still a fever the 1st time i took it immediately after reaching home:38.0. After 1 hour of sweating it out :37.8 After 1 more hour:37.0. Talk about speedy recovery, i lost 3 kg! YAY! Even now, i'm feeling groggy, sick in my guts. Oh well, hope i recover b4 tmrw's dry run.

Aaron's Life Story
Episode II (8-10)
>Play (8 years old)
Everyday was the same, wake up, fear school, forced to school, get bullied, jeered at, punched at. I felt like a nobody and yet everybody was undermining me. I was still stuck with my old class which didn't help at all because of that f***ing DoucheBag. Why did nobody help me? Why couldn't one person at all take pity on a short and insignificant figure? Who cares anyway, lets all take the winning side. Bunch of lamers. I was classified in the "Loser" Class.
>>Fast Forward (9 years old)
I'm in Charity 3 woo! top class and sadly douchebag came along just as well. By this time i was getting really annoyed and i was hoping that he wouldn't be able to make new friends that quickly but i was wrong yet again. Yet, at this point of time i was slowly scaring him away as i would now fight back and i could run faster than all of them. (NOOBS) So, they decided to let me into his "army". At that time, i considered this an achievement. Little did i know i was wrong, i was being used to do all their dirty work. I can't believe it and i felt betrayed. So, i went away. Not caring anymore because they wouldn't hunt me any longer. Thats it, pretty insignifact eh.
>>Fast Forward (10 years old)
Met one of my best teachers EVER! She was called Miss Koh, and she is damn chio lorh. She left PHPPS in 2007 because she married this uber rich guy and she was going to tour the world. Zai Right? This was the year that i made my anti-douchebag clique. Woo~! I was so damn happy lorh. These were my closest friends at that time. Even thinking about them brings a tear to my eyes. All the happy memories :) Anyways, it got worse so~~~~~~~~~

To Be Continued...

The Resurrection

Welcome to my blog - revived!

This will be a really long post as I am going to say what i feel about the class(PART II) as well as my life story(PART I) (kewl eh?)
PART I
Aaron's Life Story:

>Play (0 years old)I was born into this world on the 17th of july 1996 in gleneagles hospital, took my first breath and cried my first cry. The 4 years after that i can't remember with only vague memories of me carrying a curling comb and wearing sun shades as though i was a biker with a comb-like club.
>>Fast Foward (4 Years Old) We had just moved to our warm and cosy HDB flat in Yew Tee. At that time it was very quiet and i attended a kindergarten which was less than 100 metres away from my home. Yet everytime after class, i would walk sadly with the nightmare which came in the form of my maid. She was really very scary, she would cane me when i misbehaved and even when she cuts my hair, she will knock my head around instead of just telling me to do so. I had a strict timetable and she would ensure that i follow it every time of the day. My television viewing time was minimal as she would lock the door and not let me in unless i wanted to go to the toilet.
>>Fast Forward (7 Years Old) I made my first primary school friend on this day, the first day of school. Lets call him Douchebag . He was a very Sun Tzu kind of guy and he always talks about art of war and Tai Chi. But soon many people started to gather around him and on the third month of my primary school life, he said this to me "Lets have a war with each other, gather your own army and we will fight". To me this was a big blow as it naturally took it that he does not want to be my friend any longer. I couldn't understand it and soon i was constantly bullied in school. (Can't believe it?) And, i was very lonely and i became very violent, when they attacked me i would just bite at them. I couldn't get any friends because they all wanted to join Douchebag's Clique. You could say that that was the first time i actually felt sincerely depressed. Who the hell say that if you need anything ask the teachers, teachers just can't understand the way you feel. I have complained many times and my complains have fallen on deaf ears. The teachers are just too busy to care about minor stuff like a Primary 1 boy getting beaten up. Yet it was around this time that i surrounded myself with non-fiction books because it gives me something to concentrate on besides the cuts or bruises i got during the day.

To Be Continued....

I'm sure nobody can believe whatever i say is true huh. Especially when now i have all these good friends all around me. Well, now you will know so don't go spreading things around. And, i'm not trying to incur anybody's pity so piss off all u skeptical people

PART II
These part is extrememly sensitive and i'm just venting off steam, i might be drunk but then again jolly shandy doesn't have much alcohol. In fact, i think i wrote all these from the bottom of my heart. So you can't stop me from doing so and i will do it anyways.


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Well, lets talk about the class in various aspects:
Firstly, class duties, I'm extremely agitated about this point because 2J is YOUR CLASS and you BELONG to this class, i feel that you should really do your part and do your class duties. Excuses like, I need to eat lunch because later i have CCA, its just bullshit. On Tuesday, everyone disappeared giving that similar excuse and guess who has to stay behind and clear up the mess u left behind? I had to sweep the floor, wipe the whiteboard, clean the whiteboard tray and empty the dustbin. Why leave it to other people, don't you feel that you have a responsibility? Do you need someone to clean up after you? Don't you find that embarrassing? You push your responsibilities to others for your own convenience. I think that people like this are just spoilt brats. Do you need "mommy" to do the housework for you? Do you need "mommy" to pick up your litter for you? Do you need "mommy" to tie up a plastic bag and throw it into the garbage bin?


Secondly, the class outing, although I'm not one of the Welfare REPs but I'm a volunteer so please don't give me any crap like "You are not a chairperson, why should I care about what u say?" I'm part of the planning committee and i have a say in this. Why do most of you like to make things difficult for the people in the front? Like Wei Han, maybe if you actually listened to what we are saying you wouldn't have so many complains about all the budgets. Which part of "We will plan today" do you not understand? Personally, I feel that its quite reasonable to have people paying even though they don't come apart from those who have perfectly reasonable reasons. Reasons like "I don't want to go" wouldn't be accepted because its a class outing and if u count yourself as part of the class why can't u just make time to come? If you feel that this class is not what you hope it will be, too bad, because you will be stuck with us for the whole of this year and possible the whole of next year. Another person i can't stand is Vivian Wong. Why do you always have to have a complain about anything? Do you know that we plan to 6 everyday giving our best to make this class outing a success? Please, think how your words will affect those who have done their best to give you guys the best to our abilities. Why can't you for once acknowledge that we are right? Is it so difficult to accept another person's opinion? So what if u PMS even i try my best to keep it in check, someone as brainy as you can't keep your emotions in check? Some of you might think that i'm over-reacting but seriously, please give us some credit for our efforts instead of trying to find fault in everything we do. When you guys know your groups, you might not be happy but seriously just put your trust in us that we have a reason for whatever might happen to you. If you feel that our ideas suck, please by all means go up take the stage and spit it out. Don't bottle it in and then talk behind our backs, not only will you not get you want, but you have just established yourself as a sneaky, little rat going around to sow discord .